I know it’s really late on a Wednesday, and I realize I didn’t do my normal recipe review today. It’s been a really hectic day. I wanted to do a few updates, though.

First of all, I went back to my parents’ house on Tuesday night (I’ve been going a lot because it’s better than being alone with my depression and anxiety, so at least I get to cry with my cats). My cat, Sylvester, wasn’t feeling very good. He didn’t eat all day, and he spent most of the day just laying in the basement. He didn’t even take a bath. You could tell he felt miserable.

Mom called the vet the first thing this morning to get an appointment for him. The first open spot they had was at 3:20. So we knew we had to wait.

I had an appointment myself this morning: dermatology. My grandmother died of melanoma, so my mother made it a point when we were little to always wear sunscreen. I now wear Neutrogena 100+ SPF whenever I stay outside for more than a little while (like hiking, etc.). The dermatologist always gushes over how beautiful my skin is, and “I wish everyone could have skin as perfect as yours.” It’s something, at least.

IMG_20170816_142652_923Then mom & I went to Lush, because I wanted to check on the status of the Scrubbees. I’ve been to the store three times in the past 1.5 weeks looking for these things, and they were finally in stock today! I bought two of them, just to be on the safe side. They smell amazing and I honestly can’t wait to try them!!

We also went to this neat store called Paper Source, which is literally a haven for people like me who love stationery. Mom got a couple of books for some girls in our church who graduated back in May, as well as the annual desk calendars she gets for my sister and me every year. (I can’t wait.) Mom usually orders them online, because she didn’t know we had a brick & mortar store anywhere near us.

I someone had the will to stay away from Barnes & Noble.

We then went to Arby’s for lunch, then to the bank and Wal-Mart. I ended up buying another plant at Wal-Mart, and I can’t wait to get it home. It’s absolutely gorgeous. (I’ll have to update this post with pictures of it later, because it’s late and I don’t want to sneak back downstairs and take pictures.)

We rounded out our shopping trip by splitting a chocolate extreme Blizzard at Dairy Queen (mom had a coupon).

Once we got home, we had to capture the cat. It wasn’t too hard. We made it to the vet’s office, and Sylvester was not having it. He threw a fit with the vet, tried to bite her and everything. (He’s never like that. He’s a super chill cat.) The vet came and told us he had a fever of 106º (for context, a normal cat temperature is about 101º), and that he was fighting them so violently she couldn’t take bloodwork. She could’ve put him under sedation, but she didn’t want to stress him unnecessarily, so she gave him an oral antibiotic and an antibiotic shot, along with three more days of the oral medicine. So hopefully it’s just a passing thing and he’ll be better tomorrow ❤ He ate a little bit when we got home, but not much.

I had a huge family scare at the end of the night, and ended up not going back home to Montevallo like I’d originally planned to. I hope Eowyn’s okay (my hamster). And I’m upset that I won’t be able to take my plants home with me tomorrow because I’ll be going from my job to the comic shop, and they’re not really meant to stay in a car for 12+ hours at a time, you know?

IMG_20170816_122904An update, on #TheReadingQuest, though. With all of our running around town and waiting today, I was able to both start and finish Book #4 of #TheReadingQuest, a book based on mythology: The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien. It’s been a few years since I’ve read it, and I’d forgotten how short it is. It’s only about 300 pages, and the entirety of the final movie, The Battle of the Five Armies, takes place over the course of about two and a half pages in the book. It’s absolutely mind-blowing. (Also, don’t get me started on the movie. I am so angry about how they ended it.)

The next book on my reading list is A Great & Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray. It’ll mark off my “First book in a series” requirement. Then I’ll have to find a book that deals in magic. I’m not too sure about my choice of Clockwork Angel right now. I’ll search the rest of my bookshelves at my apartment when I get home.

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Hey, it’s my book-list! It’s looking a little more full!

Mostly, I’m just exhausted.

Life is wearing me out. Every single waking moment is of him. I can’t get away. I feel like screaming but everything in my head is already so loud that I feel like i’d burst into flames were I to scream. (Who knows?)

Please let me survive until December. (Heck, please just let me survive.)


Sorry for the half-conscious ramble. I’m sure I should be asleep far before now, considering I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow. But I rarely sleep now, because he’s there. And yet, he’s there when I’m awake, too. I’m a miserable mess.

Someone tell me how to shut my brain off.

How to stop the screaming in my head.

Because I seriously need something, y’all,  or I’m going to break.

As always, keep reading.


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