I was supposed to post this yesterday, but I got caught up in worrying about a job interview I had scheduled for today (they pulled a bait & switch on me; the job I applied for is not the job I interviewed for, so we’ll see…the money might be too good for me to pass up) and working on my actual thesis.
This is normally a day reserved for Top 5 Tuesday topics by Shanah @ Bionic Book Worm, but she gave a free week this week, and I figured that instead of searching out some other topic, I’d write about something personal for a change.
Which brings me to the topic at hand:
I might not graduate this semester.
Cue shock and horror.
I can hear you asking “Why?” and “What happened?”
In short, I don’t know. I received an email on Friday night from my advisor, asking if I could meet with her, the program chair (!!!) and my entire committee this Wednesday (!!!), because they were afraid I wasn’t going to able to graduate with the amount of work (???) I still have left to do.
I promptly freaked out, cried a lot, cried to my roommate, and then replied with, “I can meet on Wednesday. I know I lost a lot of time this winter due to me being sick for nearly 6 weeks and my grandfather’s ill health, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to graduate this May.”
And I am. In the past week, I have written 20 new pages, brining my total up to 52. I need a minimum of 60 pages to be turned in on March 1st. I’m hoping to have 80 or so by the first. I’m going to bring in as many pages as I possibly can tomorrow to the meeting to show them that I am not slacking off. I lost a lot of time this winter, to be sure, but I know I can also make up that time.
I cried a lot to Steven on the phone that night, saying things like, “They basically handed me my death warrant” and all that sort of whiny stuff. He calmed me down and talked me through my tears. “Basically is not 100%” became my mantra. I’ve set alarms on my phone to remind me to write, I’ve downloaded apps that block things on my computer and my phone so I’ll have no choice BUT to write, and I’ve scheduled out blocks of time in my planner so I know when I’ve got things to do and when I can stand to slack off.
So I’ve got a plan now. I’m going to throw myself into my thesis and avoid the real world. If I get any blogging done, they may have been scheduled well in advance, or they may be something I do during a 15 minute break from my actual thesis work. So if you don’t see me for a while (though, to be honest, I haven’t really been around consistently since November), this is what’s going on in my life.
Send me good wishes and as always, keep reading.